[Unavailable] - Paperback

by Avery Arbegast (Author)

[Unavailable] is a collection of poems about grief that never found a language.

The work follows the slow accumulation of pressure-academic, social, and emotional-and the ways constant evaluation reshapes how a person learns to exist. These poems move through depression, trauma, girlhood, shame, and survival with attention to what is often dismissed as manageable, normal, or not severe enough to name.

Much of the collection is concerned with silence: the kind that develops as a form of self-preservation, the kind that is rewarded, and the kind that is later mistaken for resilience. Themes of comparison, social media scrutiny, and emotional neglect appear not as commentary, but as conditions-background forces that quietly influence identity and worth.

[Unavailable] does not argue for healing or closure. It observes what it means to continue living with experiences that were never fully acknowledged, and with grief that remains unresolved.

Written for readers drawn to dark, introspective poetry, this collection speaks to those who have learned to endure quietly, and to anyone who has struggled to articulate what was never given space to be understood.